Orsi's world

Me and my Tarot cards 1. - Story

2010-12-26T18:46:00.002+01:00

In a difficult part of mylife I asked a kinesiologist woman for help. I wanted to know what had happenedand was happening in my life and what I could do to solve my problems and tocreate a happier life. During our meetings her Tarot cards were used sometimesas a complementary guideline. We used all of the 78 cards (The Major and MinorArcana). The first thing I realized that some cards have Roman numerals andthere are the frightful swords. Later on getting acquainted with cups, coinsand wands was a relief to me. My spreads often were composed of cups andswords.

A few months later thewoman started a Tarot course, I applied for the course without hesitation. Itook part in all sessions but interpreting spreads was a real challenge for meat that time. But I did not give up practicing. While chatting with a friendshe told me that she has a deck at home, but she did not use them so she wouldgive them to me. So my first deck was given to me as a gift.

After finishing the courseon a Friday afternoon I was on my way home from my workplace and I felt if theHigh Priestess had been following me, I felt her steps and presence behind me.I even heard her voice talking to me behind my back but when I tried to look ather I saw nobody following me. After I arrived home I called my"teacher" and asked her whether I was going insane or washallucinating.

I opened myself to flow with the events and Tarotcards and from day by day I understood more from my spreads. The Arcana beganto tell their stories. Meanwhile I started dealing with self-understanding andI went occasionally to a medium for helping me in meditation. While meditatingat home Great Arcana opened up and let me enter and merge with their energy.

In October 2007 I travelled to Egypt andbefore my travel driven by a very sudden thought I decided to start my ownTarot course. I’d like to help the people to enter the world of Tarot and to teachthem how to use and interpret the cards. So I started my first course inNovember 2007 with two students. The sessions took place in my flat but wecouldn’t keep our original schedule, the cards began to organize our occasions’frequency according to the pace of the the group members’ self-development. Ialso realized that while teaching I also study and it will be a life-longcourse for me.

The course finished and I encountered a womanwho teaches numerology. She suggested that she organized a Tarot course I thecircle of her ex-students. Suddenly I found myself teachin in 4 differentgroups simultaneously. After finishing I held two more in succession. For thestudents finished my coursed I held practicing sessions for nearly one year, inthose sessions we dealt with minor aspects.

Since 2007 this has been the first autumn whenI didn’t start a new course. My relationship with Tarot has been transformingbasically in the recent months. Now I deal with personal analysis andconsultation and at the same time I am getting immersed myself in the world ofTarot deeper.

04.12.2010

2010-12-04T18:37:00.001+01:00

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Chakra mantras session

2010-11-27T18:12:00.001+01:00

On Thursday evening I took part in the Chakra mantras session of Jana Runnalls. The experience and the whole evening was fantastic and really powerful. When I entered the room Jana was alone, sitting on her chair and drumming. I felt that her energy filled the room I had to ask if I might come in. Somehow I felt that I shouldn't bother her if she were preparing for the session. She said that I could come in, I started to feel that my crown chakra is opening from moment to moment. I could hardly wait to start the session.
We started with the root chakra. We followed the following method by each chakra: breathing exercises for the chakra, then using the sound of the chakra and then Jana explained what the mantra of the chakra meant, finally repeating the mantra 108 times.
It was really powerful. After having finished the throat chakra I felt if all of my cells in my body were dancing. I felt the living and joyful energy in all parts of my body. I wasn't surprised that we couldn't finish the programme by the promised time, the whole session lasted for nearly 3 hours (instead of 2).
After arriving home I was so calm and relaxed and I felt that before sleeping I should choose one special chakra which needs to be practiced and healed for the following 40 days. Jana suggested us to choose one chakra and do the mantras daily for 40 days. It is good for the chakra and the body and for improving discipline as well.
After I had chosen which chakra needs to be dealing with first, I did my first practice alone as Jana taught us.
I feel that a very interesting and transforming 40-day-long period has started in my life on Thursday. Thanks Jana!

Being free

2010-11-21T20:28:00.002+01:00

How do I know or feel when I am free? What does freedom mean to me?

I was thinking about the moments when I felt free, what made me feeling free? Money? I don't think so. Being alone in the weekend with money in my pursuit doesn't make me feel free. Being loved? Not either. Loving and being loved at the same time? Close, but that's still not enough.

For me being free means to accept and love myself without judging my actions, my feelings, my thoughts. Not listening to others' opininion and not listening to the voice of my ego, who always tells me you shouldn't do this but you must do the other way.

15.11.2010

2010-11-15T19:17:00.001+01:00

To let myself go
To let myself flow
Is the only way of beeing
There´s no use telling me
There´s no use taking a step back
A step back for me

Starting a new blog, a new chapter in my life

2010-11-14T13:24:00.001+01:00

I've been writing a blog in Hungarian since February 2010, and now starting one in English, too. My Hungarian blog (called the way of the stars) is about me and my tarot, my Dreamspell calendar knowledge. Somehow I felt that I should write in English as well, and write more about me and how I am finding my way from day by day.

I feel the call to leave Hungary and move to another country to meet new people, practice my English and study new languages and become richer by knowing another culture. This is my first step towards my call.

Until today 2010 has been very interesting, exhausting but also very inspiring period of my life. In January my mentor sent me away and left me alone in order to find my own way. During spring I managed to gain back my self-esteem and my faith in myself. In August I travelled to Sweden alone and encountered a wonderful family in Gothenburg. This trip was like a pilgrimage, I travelled alone, my only friend was my map and my thoughts, my feelings. By arriving home I had a clearer view about my life and myself, I also became stronger and more optimistic. I went to two interviews but I was not accepted, so I am still working at my workplace. I tried to change for another bank, but I was not successful. I started to study Swedish and in September I decided to learn at a priestess course managed by Veres Kriszta, founder of the temple of Goddess in Budapest.
I've gone through a deeply transforming period, I faced several fears of mine, and I let go many of them. I become more honest and more open to the world. And now I think I am ready for a loving relationship and becoming a mother, and for doing my task I had chosen before I was born.

And here I am, starting this new blog in the hope of opening for the world more and going international :)